Alot of things happened last night...
I found that after jasmine knew about me being together with jiahan, her attitude and the way she treat me is never the same again.
She smsed me in a v unpatient and rude manner.
Then she called me and we started on a very sensitive conversation.
She expressed to me that she cant stand my behaviour and my drastic change after i broke up with aloysius.
She was unhappy about the things i do and my attitude.
Her words are v mean and hurting.
='(
I admit that after that long relationship has ended, i changed my boyfriends v quickly.
"I was never like this", this is what she said and i agreed in my heart.
People ard me start to create a very bad impression of me.
Now, even my friend despise me. =(
I know what she meant, maybe i will try to stay away from her in order not to create inconveniece to her and her friends.
That may spoil her image?
Cause she mentioned before that she dont like to hang ard with *lousy* people.
I can do nothing now, people will surely gossip and talk behind my back.
What i can do now is to accept the fact and treasure what i have now.
I felt totally down after we hang up.
Called dear but he fall aslp.
Im sad cause theres no1 there when im down at that point of time and its already midnight.
Went to bed instead...
Woke up in the morning, the 1st thing i do is call my dear then.
He was v unhappy and fed up when he knew abt what happened.
He even mentioned to let me go if he brought me unhappiness.
Im indeed shocked by his words because he can say that so easily when he always told me he 's serious with me.
But i understand he said that because he care alot about my feelings.
He 's hoping me to be happy :)
Went to jasmine hse in the afternoon as she asked me along to have maths tuition together.
Slacked at void deck ard tmart till 7+ at night.
Oops, dear was waiting for me at Bedok princess for a long time.
So i rushed down.
Dine at long john silver with baby, his bro and ivan.
Then he bring me to his house.
Watched princess hours.
Its late, so dear sent me to the bustop.
Im happy with my simple life now, but deep in my heart will always be sorrows about how my friends look at me.

11:43 PM; missing someone like youY